people always said that high school was a great memory..i admit that was true fairy tales.but..for me..its still haunted me n caused me hate to remember about it..sometimes..its make my life worst..i'm not a gurl that being loved by all her fwen...i'm just a girl simply being chased by the person who r so damn rude n did not care about others feeling n just think about them sucks life!!being the person that alway being humiliated by the other fwen..make me feel uncomfortable to have a friendship with boys..its might be sound funny but the reality that sometimes..i feel scared to be at a places where there r to many people..my fwen sometimes laugh at me n did not believe it..but it a FACTS!!people always said that we should forgive n forget about some things bad that happen to us..it easy to say than do..y i have a hard heart n big head..umm...i hope that the damn thing will leaves my self as soon as they gone from my life..
ble berckap tentang truma...aq teringat pasal kejadian kne kejar dgan india tue..mak aii..takowt gle..naseb mse tue bwu lepas berlari n aku dpt control dri..kalo x..hish..xtao ae ape jd kat aku..agak2 nyer mse nie dah x blaja g..coz dah trauma..tue la..degil lg jd manusia...huhuhuhu
aq penah terbce tentng article yg tls pasal perwatakkan kte ble dah besar bergantung mcm mane kte dibesarkan mse umo 5-6 taon..ummm.. ble teringat blek...aku rse mcm sumethng wrong sume where dlm idop aku nie...aq rse sbb benda tue lah..aku ade akit nie..umm..nak bgtao penyakit ape..jgn arap ae..memalukan je...pape pown..hrp2 benda tue x jd lg..kalo x..wat mlu je...
esk b'dy aq...dah tue da..sedih nyer...dah dekat dah nak mti..Ya ALLAH, andai kte sudah sampai ajal ku...kau matikanlah aq dlm iman..dlm keadaan yg terbaek..jgnlah kau matikan aku dalam keadaan yg mengaibkan..kau ampunkan lah dosaku.kau jdkan lah at2 yg menyayangi aku kuat untuk mnghadapi perpisahan ini...dan kau bgtau lah mereka..sebenarnya aku sgt menyayangi mereka dan aku mendoakan kebahagiaan mereka di dunia dan akhirat...
~mencintai dan menyayangi seseorng itu bkn mudah kerana kdg2 rse disayangi dan dicintai dlm diri ini tiada..
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